Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Practice makes perfect, Right? Well at least if you ever get to practice!

I decided to go down stairs and practice some more. Mom took me to the barn she went over the candles for each element Obviously Red for Fire, Green for Earth, Blue for Water, and Yellow for Air, as each was lite you could smell each element. “Place each on the four corners when lit they will represent the North, East, South, and West goddesses. They need to burn when you are with elemental powers.” Jacqueline told her daughter.

Jacqueline reached into a bag “I bought this for you last year!” she told Julia. Jacqueline handed her a leather bound book with a beautiful tree on the front.  “It is a Celtic Book of Shadows. For you! This is to Journal your spells in. I have a feather pen and ink for writing them down also the more true you stay to the old ways the stronger the spells.” Jacqueline told her daughter. I looked at the binding on the book and rubbed I ran my finger down the spine it was so smooth for such an ancient looking book. Then when she opened the Book of Shadows it was the smell of fresh herbs, and the elements all together in one book. This has been in many elders’ hands I can feel that it has.

“Mom it is beautiful! Thank you so much.” Julia said to her mother with such joy in her eyes and gratitude in her body language her mother was very happy to see her daughter smile and be happy. But Jacqueline still had a sadness she could see that her daughter was trying to hide.

“Julia are you upset about something?” Jacqueline asked her daughter

“I just do not think I am enough for Detective O'Connor, or maybe I am not worthy to be his
eternal mate!” she said with sadness.

“Julia! Where would you get that idea?” Jacqueline said very upset that her daughter was thinking like this 
“You are crazy to think that you were not enough, he needs to be worthy enough to be your eternal mate not  the other way around, Julia. Do not every think you need to be worthy of someone else’s love.” Jacqueline told her daughter “An eternal mate is who you are born for! Detective O'Connor was born two centuries ago and when you were born he stopped aging, so that when you met you would be around the same human age. See you were made for him and him for you, which are how eternal mates work. You do not need to be perfect or try too hard, or be worthy or enough for him or he for you to each other you are perfect the way you are. Do you understand Julia?”

“I understand that but why did he leave so quickly? Why did he not stay to talk to me?” Julia said dropping her head into her hands with a sob continued in a whisper “Why do I care so much what he thinks, why am I so upset? We just met not even a week ago but I feel so devastated when he leaves! What is going on with me, mom? I have never even had a relationship to know what this is or how to handle these feelings!”

“Julia, exactly you have not experienced a relationship or any other male companion other than Ryan. Maybe you should hang out with Ryan Matthews tomorrow and see what it feels like to be with another male other than Detective O'Connor and those intense feelings that you two have for each other. He will be working on something tomorrow so he really will not be around much to notice you hanging out with Ryan, What do you think? Plus you know it will really get to O'Connor you hanging out with another male!” Jacqueline giggled and bumped her daughter in the shoulder with her own.

Julia giggles and said “Mother I cannot play with someone’s emotions. Ryan truly is in love with me and I do not feel the same about him. It would be unfair to him to use him like that plus he may have left already!”

“Actually I have apologized to him and invited him to come tomorrow?” Jacqueline said. Heat blow through the air Julia was still with fire and her anger ignited the flame and it was blazing high and heat exploding out.

Julia looked at her mother “MOTHER YOU DID WHAT? HOW COULD YOU DO THAT?” Jacqueline was stepping backwards when she could not go any further do to her back against the barn she tried to calm her daughter.

“Julia, calm down honey it is for your own good you need to live and have experience with friends and boyfriends before committing to Detective O'Connor. Please I know all this is new to you but you will get through this and be with him completely when you were truly meant to be together. But Julia please direct your fire element toward the pit that needs fire not me.”
Julia was thinking about what her mother had said she would like to experience life a little more than what she has. Detective O'Connor has experienced friends, career, and relationships. That last one left a bad taste in her mouth. Julia started to calm down lite the fire pit and moved away from her mother.

“Mom I will hang out with Ryan tomorrow but please do not expect me to run off with him to experience life I need to get through each day slowly.” Julia agreed

“That is all I ask honey just have memories that you will never forget before you take on all your responsibilities here at the coven. Because if what you have experience so far with your change you are destined for greatness!” Jacqueline said and reproached her daughter now that her fire element has been contained. Julia looked at her mother with tears in her eyes,

“I just do not want to hurt anyone! But I do want my career and to experience life with my friends! But like I said mom I will think about the rest.”

Julia and Jacqueline sat and talked around the fire for a while, about eleven o’clock Jacqueline yawned.

“Julia asks the goddess to take the fire element back we need to sleep for the events tomorrow.”
Jacqueline said to her daughter as she rubbed Julia’s shoulders.

“Goddess of the East I thank you for your offering of the fire element. I appreciate and respect you and the element of fire. Blessed be.” Julia said aloud.

A wind came down on Julia and swirled around her and cooled her skin she knew at once the fire was gone. As she turned to walk to the house she saw her mother chanting something in audible for her to hear. Then a rush of water came through the grass rushing over my feet to the fire pit then you could see the steam start to rise as it was putting out the fire I had started. My mother was doing this she has the elemental gift of water. 

“Awesome” Julia said. Her and Jacqueline started to laugh and walked back to the house with their arms around each other.

Julia walked into her room and could see a pending message on her Mac screen. Her heart was pounding her palms were sweaty and her stomach was flipping. “Please let it be him, please!” she said walking over to her computer. She moved her mouse to the envelope showing 1 unread message double clicked the message to read it:

Sunday 05/16/2013
Ms. Julia Wholeheart,

Welcome to the University of Kentucky! Your official welcome letter will be in the mail to you soon. Congratulations and see you soon.

Sincerely

Mrs. Jasmine Delong, Dean of Admissions


What I did not apply to the University of Kentucky! I will have to call on this tomorrow and find out who could have sent the application in. Disappointed and really confused Julia closed her computer and crawled into bed to and covered her head and fell asleep.

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