What is Going on?

Hello everyone, I am feeling better no more pain my mothers tea is a miracle to say the least. There is so much that has happened since I really last wrote anything. I met Detective O'Connor who has come into my life like a whirl wind, I have found out that I am some sort of witch that is changing sooner and faster then normal, and everyone in my community pretty much is one too. My head is spinning from all of this but the thing that bothers me the most is I can not tell my friends any of this. How do I keep this from the girls, I tell everything, and I also have to go through his change without them also. We have never done anything with out each other!

No one is really telling me anything just little bits and pieces, there really has to be a change in the way people find out because begin thrown into severe pain expectantly and then being told "I really can't say anything until it is the right time!" What the hell is that all about? I think I have the right to know not be blind sided with "You are part of a Coven, and you are a witch and this is just the start of the change and Oh yeah you have an eternal mate!" This really needs to be explained sooner and slowly over time, really mom and dad!

Where do I begin...Oh yes, O'Connor! I dream of this man every night now and every dream is realer than the last. Mom says "Julia, Do not travel in your dreams!" Really how am I suppose to control this if no one will tell me anything lady! Anyways, after the party and Ryan's kiss, and let me tell you WOW! for a first kiss it was nice. But the second was so much better from O'Connor, I swear I can still feel his lips pressed against mine. Why am I laying here rubbing my lips thinking about a man I barely know and giggling like a school girl? I have never been that girl and I have totally turned into that girl. Yuck!

I just can not stop thinking of him, he has turned into every thought, feeling, and dream! I loved it when he left me with my friends and told me "I miss you already!" I get cold chills just thinking about it. His accent is think but some what Americanized, but it is still sexy to hear. He seems to always pop up unexpectedly, and with so much energy pushing his feeling out onto me. This is so overwhelming with getting ready to graduate, my birthday and now this change, Oh yes and to top it off an eternal mate! What is next?????

Thinking all this through in my favorite hiding spot!!!