Getting through this change is a struggle!

So trying to talk to mom tonight was like talking to a brick wall. I wanted answers that is it and all she keeps doing is talking around the subject at hand "What the hell is going on?"! I have some information but what should I expect next. The only thing I could get out of her was the change take a year and a day of training before the second full moon ceremony. Of course my next question was "What is a full moon ceremony?" of course I did not get the answer I wanted, I got "You will know when the time is right honey!" UUUGGGGG! Why will no one tell me what is going on, it is not like I can call my friends.

Rose would be here with if she could, Heather McBride would tell me to research my new role on life and see what is on the net about it, and Heather Patterson would tell me to kick ass and ask questions later! I really need them right now. I am so confused, Does my life get put on hold for this change or does it keep moving forward? Who else in the community that I went to school with has made the change? Is there anyone I can go to? Should I call or e-mail O'Connor? Detective O'Connor will give me the same half ass answer like my mom. God I am so angry at them for hiding such a big part of my life from me. How could they do that?

My dad is pulling down the drive way now coming home from work for the evening, maybe listening to his day will take my mind off this change, college, graduation, full moon ceremony, and my birthday. I run down the stairs to met him as he comes in the door when I get hit in the gut with that rippling butterfly feeling coming up my body from my toes to every nerve on my scalp. I am never going to get use to this feeling! Then I knew who was going to walk through that door and as it opened he looked straight into my soul and caressed it with his energy "Hello Julia!" he said with his accent the sent a shiver up my spine. How can I feel this way about this man that I barely even know?

"Hello Detective!" I said to him

I have decide to get to know him tonight somehow!

JULIA ASKING FOR HELP