Monday, September 22, 2014

I hate arguing with Detective O'Connor...But I like it at the same time!!!

I turned on the shower to get ready for tonight. As I stepped into the shower the water cascaded on my back and felt so good. As I turned to face the shower head I let the water run down my face to clear the tears from it. This argument gave me an excuse for me to sneak out tonight, but I still feel bad for doing it. I was upset to find out that Detective O’Connor was worried, sad and confused about why I left to confide in Ryan. But I am glad my mom put the reasoning like she did so I can use that at a later time as my excuse for my plan. I start to feel sad again that I will have to hurt them in order to keep them safe. I grabbed the shampoo when I felt a breeze come in the shower. “Hello! Is anyone there?” I asked

“Why? Why did you leave with him, Ryan?” he said in my mind

“Why do you have to ask, you left me last night then you have not been around when I needed you. He was here for me and willing to listen to me and talk to me, so I left!” I told him knowing that was a lie, I want to tell him that I have no feelings for Ryan that he is the only one that consumes my every thought but I can’t it has to be this way.

“Julia, I am sorry I was presented with some information that I needed to think about and then I came across something today I needed to investigate! I am sorry I should have been here for you but I was not and for that I am truly sorry.” he said

“Yes and what was that information?” I asked knowing he would not tell me.

“I do not have all the answers right now; I will tell you as soon as I have the answers. But I ask that you stay away from Ryan, he can protect you from farther rather than closer.” He said

“Are you kidding me right now? And you wonder why I went with him you just answered that question you do not talk to me, you try to handle everything on your own. You and my parents do not let me help, this is my life and “my change” and I am in the dark about it. You guys are pushing me away and fast. So I will go where I can get answers.” I said as I finished in the shower but I was getting so pissed off that the water felt hotter like skin blistering hotter, so I had to jump out. 

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